Archive for August, 2008

Here’s some interesting reading regarding politics- if this is not your thing, no biggie, its just a local POV.  My mom called today and told me about Sarah Palin being the VP nominee and my response was, “well that just sealed McCain’s fate, get ready for 4 years of Obama!”  I’m for neither this election, but since I can’t vote, it doesnt really matter anyway!

So, I’ve had a few people ask “What does that mean!?”  to some of the things I say and today I realized that I’m perpetuating that inquiry through my daughters.  She looked at Charli on multiple occassions today(really yesterday since its 2am and I can’t sleep) and said, “OH BOY HOWDY CHARLI!”   Yikes… well lets see if we can’t clear a few of these up.


“Bloody”- I’ve often heard, “you know you’re using the ‘F’ word when you say that right!?”  Yeah, well, get over it.  To me the definition is not the F word- my Granny uses this word on occassion, my mother uses it a lot, and really, its what I grew up hearing, and so I don’t consider it hearing the ‘F’ word and if it offends the occassional American, or anyone across the pond, I’m ok with that.  Cause really, its just added for emphasis, not for offense.

“FREAKIN’ A”- My father used to ask me what this meant and told me I did not sound like a lady and even banned me from saying this in his house.  Welp, I can belch louder than your only SON and have never been terribly lady-like(though I have made same dang good attempts!) and really, it means just that, “freakin a”  nothing more, nothing less.  Which leads me to my next one!

“Welp” -This is kinda like “well” or “so”- not really sure where it came from, just something I’ve always said.

“Oh boy howdy”- Tori’s most recent favorite.  Said, “ooooohhhhhhh boy howdeee”  normally prefaces “YOU’RE ABOUT TO BE IN BIG TROUBLE!!!”  Probably something I picked up in Oklahoma.  I’m assuming thats enough info.

“dammit” or “damnit”- Alright, I can hear my critics running for this one- Look all you Utahns who’ve never said a swear word- this word was like “THE” in my house growing up.  Dave was pretty shocked the first time my Dad yelled at him, “DAMMIT DAVE!”  after a very trechorous round of Boggle we played while I was pregnant.  It was my Dad’s turn to announce his word findings and he says, “And the creme de la creme-(big pause, he’s expecting a 2 pointer here)-  BIRTH”  And dave replies, “Got it”  and of course, the fist pounding “dammit” followed by my mother chastizing him, “DOUG!  You’re going to wake up Tori!” while I’m dying laughing at the fact my husband never ceases to smoke everyone in Boggle and based on my Dad’s reaction, this for some reason, still shocks him.

“Tea-Towel”-mmmmk- I don’t know why more people don’t get this!  ITS A DISH RAG OR DISH TOWEL PEOPLE!  The first time I said it, Dave said, “A what?”  Its English, and my mother(who I really think sometimes, believes she was a Brit in a former life) said it all growing up and so thats what I’ve known them as.  And think about it- “Can you hand me a teatowel”  sounds a lot nicer than rag or dish towel…

Serviette- a little Sarah trivia here- I’m Canadian!  Born in Edmonton, Alberta, home if the WEM!  I suppose I should take a little more pride in my home country but I’m more of a “live in the now” kinda gal and right now, thats the U S of A… its French for napkin for the record, and again, something that was said growing up.  If you’re wondering why I’m Canadian and why its French- well then we really have a problem.  FYI- French is the official language of Canada, THEN English.  Everything you buy is written in both French and English.

And lastly!

“Crack-a-lack-a-ding-dongs”  Dave and I both say this- I attempt to keep it in our house, but occassionally it slips out and I get the inevitable “What the?” look- Dave says he coined this, I say I said it way before I even met him and he got it from me- wellllll- its used after a sort of “victory”.  We’ve used it, “take that crack-a-lack-a-ding-dongs!” or “eat it crack-a-lack-a………” 

Alright, for now, thats me, and us, translated!  Anyone else have anything they say that has to be translated?  Leave it in the comments!!!!!  Any more questions on what we say?  Dave has a couple of his own that he’ll use for certain family members, but for now, those are his stress relief words so we’ll keep them UN-translated.  🙂  


OH YEAH!  I almost forgot!  Today is my spectacular sister, Jessica’s birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  She is a great friend, person, sister, and Aunt.  We used to dance to Amy Grant and Wilson Phillips when we were little till we couldn’t stand up anymore.  In California, we used to go to the park and roll down this  huge hill.   Once, in Nebraska, we had fish.  One “disappeared” from the tank and the little beggar had jumped out by itself and flipped under the couch.  Jenny, our younger sister, found it MONTHS later and cried her eyes out.  We told her it went to fish heaven when it went down the toilet!  I also remember playing roller blade street hockey in Vegas and when we moved to Oklahoma, things were really hard, but we had occassional late night talks in our shared bathroom that I’ll never forget.  Once afetr she had moved out, she came and took me for a drive to Stillwater just for fun and we drove past her ex-boyfriends house.   And now that we’re grown up and live far away from each other, I wish I had made the effort and put aside differences to be better friends with her growing up.  But, we’re making up for lost time and she spoils my kids and we talk pretty regularly.  I love you lots Jess.  Hopefully we’ll see you guys soon!


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So if you have not read yesterday’s post (and commented!), as promised here is the better post. 

This past week has been busy in the Payne household!  Last Saturday was our date day that Dave planned while the girls stayed at his parents house for the day/evening.  We went here, here, here, and lastly here, for this.  The “this” part was pretty good.  I liked it.  And why may I ask does everyone always ask, “And Dave was ok with that?”  As if for some reason I intentionally bring my husband for regular torture sessions?  NO!  HE planned the day might I add!   I just happen to have a very sweet husband who likes doing/seeing things I like to! 

While we were out we got these!

Aren’t they so cute!  The seal sucks, cause he’s smaller than the rest of them which = BURNT… and all the appendages of each animal pretty much look like they’ve been flame torched… ok, so not that bad, but they’re not as pretty as I’d like.  Dave’s opinion was that the undercooked ones fresh out of the oven were the best.


Charli also decided to greet us like this earlier this week!

She was taking a late evening nap and we were watching the Olympics and all the sudden I looked up and my sweet baby was just contently gazing at me, not making a peep!  She’s the happiest baby!

Days at home with the girls can often be pretty crazy.  One day last week both girls got 2 baths, but neither cares cause they both love the water, especially if they can take a tub together!

Last week I also made our anniversary cake-a dark chocolate cake with white chocolate truffle buttercream and a chocolate ganache on top… tori raked her fingers through to “give Charli a taste!” and so I ended up having to re-do the whole top in a hurry, so its not as pretty. 😦  We each had a piece and Dave took the rest to work!  He concluded that this cake+white chocolate buttercream= oreo cupcakes.  Its pretty close!

Tori still loves to make Charli laugh, and they spend all day entertaining each other and ME! (can you see the animal cracker box!?)

And our week rounded out with a 3 hour scream/tantrum fest brought to us by Tori for our Friday night entertainment.  It was so fun that I called Rose and said, “HI!  CAN WE BRING YOU TORI TOMORROW!?  Oh and charli too, but really we just need a break from Tori!”  As usual her reply was, “I’m always glad to help!” in a cheerful, sympathetic voice that only a seasoned mother could offer.

Saturday morning there was a special visitor in town!

Clifford came to Barnes and Noble!  Tori had a blast and we didn’t feel as guilty for having another date day for the second week in a row!

Thanks a million Rose(and Dale) for watching her while we went and saw this and went here.  It was not that great and both of us felt queasy afterward… not worth your money!  We also went here to get Dave a peanut butter bucket and me an apple.  The movie was pretty funny, but as usual it seems the same story line just different settings and actors… it gets old.  Which is why we’ve seen more movies in the last week than we have in the past YEAR!  I’m not a fan of seeing movies, but this looked funny and we needed some comedic relief, not courtesy of our children!  So, Saturday night ended with the following fun…

Running through the sprinklers with Grandma, Grandpa, and Daddy!  Somehow we only got the aftermath with Dad, but he was soaked just as much as Tori!

Even Charli went through!

And seeing what the garden had to offer!

Tori went to go get a red cherry tomato she HAD to have.  It was so funny!  She crawled underneath a huge branch of this plant and stayed underneath there checking out her finds!  FINALLY the tomatoes are going red and so we got around 10 tomatoes, 4-5 cucumbers, 5 chili peppers, and a zucchini!  YAY!  We had an all vegetable meal Sunday with yellow beans we found at the farmer’s market, roasted tomatoes with basil, garlic and italian cheese blend, broccoli salad, and artichokes.  And this is why I love summer! 

Hope everyone had as great a week as we did!

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So, there’s a better post coming soon, but I just thought I’d share a few things I’m thankful for(of course this isnt all of them, but just lately.)  :

Baby giggles(namely Charli)

My beautiful girls

Curly hair(on dave and tori)

Charli’s duck fuzz

my sister Jessica who doesnt mind incessant phone calls from Tori and talks to her like she’s a real person.

my cousin Savanna (who called this week just to check up on me cause its been a while)

My in-laws who, on Saturday, took Tori and Charli for us while we regained our sanity after Friday night…

the feeling that fall is almost here!

What are you thankful for!?

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3 years and counting

Exactly 3 years ago today, Sarah and I were married and began our journey together as husband and wife. A lot has happened in the 3 years we have been married… a lot has changed. I’ve been thinking a lot about my life and my family the last little while, and I’m more than happy to say that there is no place I would rather be right now. I am so lucky to have been found by Sarah and to be able to go through this life with all its up and downs, with all its twists and turns by her side. She is an amazing woman who has blessed me and my life tremendously. Sarah and I have been blessed with the most beautiful little girls this world has ever seen. With the exception of a few little bumps and bruises, life could not be better right now.

People questioned the way we met and the way we started our lives together, but we stuck together and trusted each other. Thank you Sarah for always being there for me. Whenever I have had a problem or trial (I guess you could say) you have been there to pick me up and push me forward. I thank you for pushing me to do things I would not normally do, to come out of my shell and show people who I really am. You are the reason I (finally) graduated from college, and you are my motivation for pursuing a Masters. Because of you, I want to be the very best I can be and provide the very best for my family. You make working day in and day out a lot easier. You make school important again, not just a chore that it was becoming. I am so glad you are able to stay home and be with our daughters every day. Thank you so much for taking care of us and for sharing who you really are with us. Thank you for all you do for ME. I cannot put into words what you mean to me. I am excited for what our future holds.

I love you so much baby!

Unforgettable — by Nat King Cole

Unforgettable, thats what you are
Unforgettable though near or far
Like a song of love that clings to me
How the thought of you does things to me
Never before has someone been more

Unforgettable in every way
And forever more, thats how you’ll stay
Thats why, darling, its incredible
That someone so unforgettable
Thinks that I am unforgettable too

Unforgettable in every way
And forever more, thats how you’ll stay
Thats why, darling, its incredible
That someone so unforgettable
Thinks that I am unforgettable too

*** Note: Sarah did not like this song either when we first met, but has grown to love it as much as I have her songs. That’s another thing about us: we’ve grown on each other and learned to like things the other likes. However, the ideas expressed below about John Mayer’s supposed good looks do not necessarily reflect my thoughts on the matter. ***

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just do it!

So besides John Mayer’s great baby face, sweet voice and great career- the guy can come out with some pretty thought provoking lyrics.  For the longest time Dave didn’t really like this song, “Say” and I couldn’t really figure out why I liked it so much- then, I took the time to look the lyrics up and it must be because this is basically my life’s mantra… JUST SAY IT!

Anyone who knows me, knows that I can have a sort of cannon of a mouth.  I’m proud to say that I’ve bridled it (a little) in the past few years, but as a general rule I think its good to speak what you’re really feeling-positive OR negative.  I’ve told Dave this over and over in our life- and not just pertaining to saying things.  ANYTHING you do- there are two outcomes, failure or succes, negative or positive- and really is failure or a negative outcome that bad?!  Taking a risk or a chance is a good thing!  I took a HUGE chance on Dave when I moved out here.  It could have had astronomical negative repercussions, or payed out massive positive dividends.  It has worked out the latter.  When I was in Oklahoma I was going to school, and really, on the topic of saying things- before I came out here I was failing, miserably at that.  I wasnt interested in it.  I didnt want to go in the first place, but went to appease other people.  Failing is not the end.  No matter where you are, you can always start over.  Thats the beauty of life.  So far, I’ve yet to see anyone run out of chances, unless they themselves, admit defeat. 

I could go on and on, but on that note- here are those spectacular lyrics! (and if you haven’t listened to this yet, Google it and be prepared to be addicted)


Take all of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all your so called problems
Better put ’em in quotations

Say what you need to say
Say what you need to say…

Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you’d be better off instead

If you could only
Say what you need to say
Say what you need to say…

Have no fear
For giving in
Have no fear
For giving over
You better know that in the end
It’s better to say too much
Then never to say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open… wide…

Say what you need to say
Say what you need to
Say what you need to
Say what you need to say.

Thats all folks!

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yep its me! 

I’m alive, and doing pretty dang well, all considering.  The surgery was a (fill in the blank with your word choice) and my hospital stay was a blast interesting…  I told Dave, I am now inspired to get back into shape because of the woman that was my roommate.  It was frustrating cause she moaned and screamed every night so much and so loud that saturday I finally called dave and said, “I NEED TO GO HOME- TONIGHT.”   It was quite the experience but I am ELATED to be back home with my girls and dave-I’d rather hear them scream/moan/cry-whatever- anyday, than that woman!   I am feeling worlds better now that I am not on pain meds- only 8 days of that crap!  I’m pretty proud of myself!  I was interested to see what “normal” side effects were, so I looked up online all the drugs they gave me and they range from 2-80 times more powerful than COCAINE!  I cannot believe that!  Needless to say that motivated me even more so to get off them since I’m nursing Charli- they’ve said that it’s “safe” to take while nursing, but I notice a huge difference in her and I’m STOKED to be off them!

I think Tori has probably had it the worst as far as adjusting goes.  We had a new baby, which she wasnt quite ready for(what 2 year old princess would ever be?), then mommy was sick all the time(or doped up on pain meds) and then this surgery- and now its so dang hot, we’re not going anywhere!   Its been difficult and I just keep having to remind myself that its a phase and it will pass.  Thankfully both girls are sleeping right now, which has allowed me some rare downtime.  I’m still restricted to not lifting anything heavier than a gallon of milk(or charli…) which is nice is some ways. 

I’ve already been back in the kitchen… alas though, NO PICTURES!  Why?  because during all the hubbub Dave and I cannot seem to find our camera bag… This past month at Costco a digital camera was on sale, and I wish I would have bought it, but we really don’t have the money and we’re attempting to get OUT of debt, not further in.  But, kitchen happenings include snickers macarons from Tartelette, as well as chocolate custard ice cream, both that we brought to my in-laws’ house last night.  Macarons are supposed to be challenging culinary wise, but they turned out perfect and this was my first attempt!  My only problem was that the batch I baked on my Sil-Pat was undercooked, and so some turned out hollow, which was actually ok, since you put peanuts, nougat, caramel and chocolate ganache ALL in between two little cookies… These weren’t my favorite thing, but it was fun to try them- AND!  Now we own a digital food scale- something I’ve been wanting for a while!   Next step-hopefully my sister’s bagel recipe!

A few more things and then I’m done… first the depressing stuff.  I looked last night at the U’s website about the master’s program- I swear I read something about a spring enrollment date… not so.  I re-read and saw that they only start the MBA program in the fall… so now we have to wait a WHOLE YEAR before dave can start!  BUT- I also found this– which is what Dave thinks he’d enjoy doing.  Its a concurrent thing, and adds another 2 semesters onto you MBA- which sucks, but as my Aunt told me this past weekend, “Short term pain, for long term gain”   YES!  Thats the idea/attempt.  I’m so proud of Dave for wanting to go higher in his education- no kidding, out of BOTH our families(parents, siblings, in laws etc…), when he finishes his master’s, he’ll have achieved the highest degree!  WAY TO GO BABY!  I am so proud of him, and after he’s finished, I hope to go back as well- now the debate is culinary school(which would be a BLAST) or the traditional four year degree, most likely in nursing…culinary sounds way more fun- no traditional math either.  I’m dreading when I do go back taking any math class.  It will be made easier cause Dave is a math whiz, but none the less, lets not forget I took Algebra TWICE in high school and still only passed with a D!

Lastly- a week from Tuesday is our 3rd anniversary.  I’m so excited- every year that passes I feel like flying the bird(yes, thats right, I just wrote that) to a few people who basically told us we wouldn’t last or it was the wrong thing.  Not that three years equates to like 50 or something, but when we were first together, so many people mocked us and were so unsupportive.  Most of them we do not associate with anymore, and the ones we do, we have learned to forgive even though, with the exception of Dave’s mom and Andrea(our sister in law), no one has ever apologized to either of us for the things they’ve said and/or done.  It was a huge lesson(more for dave, unfortunately) to realize when it comes down to it, we can only truly depend on each other, but it has solidified and made our marriage all the better and Dave is incredible the way he is not afraid to stand up for his family(meaning me and our girls) to ANYONE.  We do things the way we want to and the way that works for us and its AMAZING.  I can honestly say that I love being married the majority of the time!  We have two adorable little girls, who are the cutest kids ever, and really, we are so blessed.  Dave has a job that supports us- albeit not fantastically, but we have been able to support ourselves, by ourselves, 100% of our marriage.  His job has great benefits and he’s got an amazing boss(Jake) who we love like family.  He’s a great friend to Dave and Dave likes going to work most days!  We have been so blessed and watched over(especially recently) and really, we have a splendid life.   And I certainly cannot forget those people that have supported us from the start… there are a few(and you know who you are), but one that comes to mind most often, is my best friend/sister Stacey has NEVER faltered in her support and the time he or I have been down, she’s never complained about 2am phone calls or incessant sobbing over the phone.  I miss you tons stace. 

Now excuse the sappyness that has and is about to ensue…

Happy early anniversary to my amazing husband who does so much for me and our little girls.  I love you Dave -more than anything in this world- and you are a fantastic guy.  Thanks for being you.  Thanks for taking care of me and encouraging me when its been so hard.  Thanks for working so hard in school and working to better our lives in the future.  Thanks for getting up with Charli even when you have to go to work.  Thanks for playing with Tori and relieving me as soon as you get home.  Thanks for dancing with me and showing that romantic side on occassion- I’ve always loved it.  I love you and I love being married.  Here’s to the next 3 and more! Love, your sweetie

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